What's wrong with me

Lately, I found myself have bad temper. I just couldn't control myself and keep throwing temper to my loved one. I knew I shouldn't, but somehow it just happened. Sometimes, I was depressed.

Perhaps, it was because I am too stress on my work. I felt that I can't master well on my new job although I strive hard to improve and adsorb as much as possible but it seems still can't hit my superior's expectation.

Sometimes, I felt lonely stay in Singapore, be apart with my loved one. I have to be independent and to corp with the issues that I face on a day to day basis. I hope I can slow down my pace and enjoy the precious time without thinking or worrying too much for my future or career. But the reality is you just can't stop or slow down if you want to survive in the first world country, the environment will keep pushing you to move forward and achieve a new height.

I felt envy to my friends who can pursue their dreams with doing the thing they like without care about how other people think about you. It takes courage I agreed. I am just not the person who are brave and willing to take risk, I afraid if I made a wrong decision, it will affects my portfolio, I just worry too much about every little things surrounding me, which is not good I knew.

I need to let go of perfect. Nothing is perfect in this world, same goes to human being, I shouldn't control so much and let it be. I have to accept everyone have their strength and weakness. I have to learn shouldn't take life for granted. I have to be grateful. I have to let go the negative thoughts. I need a change!

Just wanted to write down my complicated mindset and refresh my mind. Life goes on, if we can't change the life, we need to change our mind.

It's April

It's almost end of April.

Been slack since Chinese New Year. It's time to continue planning my journey and think about my future. Mission #1 Mastering WordPress. I'll attend a WordPress workshop next week, it's an opportunity to learn a new skillset.

Back from a wonderful Hong Kong trip and now looking forward to Jay Chou's Opus 2 concert on Nov =)
 

 

new year resolution #4: read more

Everyone make a goal-setting for a brand new year, so do I. Read more is one of my resolution among the 12 lists. Went to library yesterday and borrow the first batch of books that I am interested. Seriously, I feel that reading is really important to me, it adds more values to my thinking and impact my behavior/action towards my daily life. 

Read. People spend years writing some books but you can read it in a few hours. Reading is one of the best forms of mentorship, you have access to all the knowledge you need. So, please fully utilize your time in reading book instead of Facebook. This is also my resolution #1, minimize the time on browsing FB =)

Reading is everything. Reading makes me feel like I've accomplished something, learned something, become a better person. Thus, no matter how busy you may think you are, you must find time for reading.

Welcome 2014!

2014, keep pursuing your dreams! There is still long way to go, but you have to keep on moving and never stop.

Move On

Yea, back to blog. Had complicated mood recently, have strongly feeling to make some changes on my life. I really hope that the new challenge and motivation will happen. I hope I can make thing happened and redesign my life.

It has been 2 years, is time to move on.

murmur

It's been a long time, I have disappear from this little space. Less blog post recently due to my laziness and busy in my working. Yea, I know this is just an excuse! Do love to enjoy reading blog than writing blog. hahaha.

Somehow feel that life is difficult, however we need to overcome these obstacle to achieve our dream. Life still go on. Recently, thinking what's my dream? Already used to 9-6 working routine, repeat the same stuff day-by-day, until forgot what's I really want. Am I still need to repeat for fellow 10 years, 20 years , etc...?

What could I do? Should I need a change? How can I upgrade myself? Felt so guilty, still don't have a clear direction although have been live for 20++years.

Just wanna to write out the worries in my mind. Have a nice weekend!